And the wait continuessss.....

All I ever wanted was that the voids to fill in and the gap to get jammed but the wait continues for this to happen. We have always been told that we get human life once and it should be lived in a good way but I always feel that this life is not supposed to be lived in a good way but just in your way. It is a human experience for our spiritual soul so the choice should be given to the soul. The human greediness and materialism has created this gap and now it has been accumulated by pressures of job, marriage, kids, pension plans, shopping and the black hole. I have always been consistent about my morning prayers since childhood and I wonder will the gap ever fill?? Or is this feeling of gap itself a human attention gap??

I have been ever since waiting for the right moment, right plan, right job, right salary, right love and then I wonder why is that our demands always end up in materialistic ways. Being fully aware of the spiritual form we many a times end up thinking completely human. And this further adds to the gap cause we tend to run after the most easily available source, i.e. being completely human. I pray, dream, think, write about feeling completely in sync with my soul but the gaps continues and my wait continuessssss.......

wingsss

Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and rightdoing, there is a field. I'll meet you there. When the soul lies down in that grass, the world is too full to talk about. Ideas, language, even the phrase each other doesn't make any sense. (Sufi Poet Rumi) Never did I hear about Rumi and his sayings. And by the way I am not into poets and poetry as I do not get their rhythm. But hearing this saying in a popular bollywood movie made me think about this “field”. I thought a lot but could not imagine being in that field and at last dropped the idea and got busy with my daily doings. I had to visit a dear friend’s wedding and the only gift she had reluctantly asked was a painting from me. Yes, I am into paintings but the last I did was some odd 2yrs back. And I had nothing to offer. So I shuffled through my last works and found one. Did few alterations, fixed more colours, gave a margin and it was hell ready. That’s when it struck me that this is the “field”, where I can go to any boundary. Any colour, any shape, any form does not matter, what matters is my love for that colour, that shape that form. While presenting her the painting she asked me “what is the painting reflecting?” and I was mesmerized by the field as the answers that I gave were completely different from what I had imagined while re-doing the painting. This is what I imply from Rumi, the field is so vast that I can feely think, do, say; believe in anything that I want. Sometimes it does take an event to bring you to your field. I am here and here for good.....

Rendezvous with wisdom

Once while deep in sleep, wisdom came knocking on my soul. She wished to deliver me all the acumen possible, an insight beyond humanity, a tour of the world of sanity and affection. It was my dream to experience this moment since forever and I was all excited to sit in this plane. I got my soul ready and my backpack of humanly experiences intact with a whole new world with me. There were many acquaintances interested to come along materialistic hormones grasping my soul more and more, parental love clutching along and worldly affection waiting to be welcomed. What an irony to start a new journey of being nothing and everything gathering to make something.
I asked wisdom to render help to sort these co-passengers. She calmly adored me and asked to bring along everything possible. Having full faith on the motherly wisdom I started the plane. Everything was unclear when the plane started but when I took some height it was crystal clear. It hit me with the thought that unless seen the whole perspectives a sound decision is cloudy. It’s like zoom out to see the whole picture and zoom in to see your soul.
My co-pilot asked me to stop flying and let the plane take me wherever. It was something which being human is effortful but spiritual journey need not need such directions. The plane was my beloved then, something I had complete trust upon and adoration with. It took me to mountains with rare flowers and animals, endless oceans of numerable aqua beauty and skies full of infinite rainbows. All emotions seemed so small in front of this magnificent masterpiece. I cried, laughed, smiled, felt sad all at the same time. I had asked for wisdom and in the process travelled light years of spirituality. Everything is a mirage of each other. I learned that. And since then I pray for wisdom to guard me, my co-pilot to direct me and my beloved to take me beyond the horizon.

A Lil Love can change it all...

Life brings all kinds of emotions complementary with it. A smile can shadow any pain. I had never asked for all the wrongs and the rights that came across, but they did and I am surely grateful for that. I feel when people say they don’t need love or care, that’s when they need it the most. Life’s a rocky road, a package which has both the dos and don’ts and a little love can change it all.
It does happen when we meet complete strangers and we volunteer for a smile or a helping hand and we boost it in front of ourselves but hide it from people with an unknown fear. Love is all that we need, we got to find it amongst ourselves and our race. We cannot imagine the amount of love in a stranger but our timely actions of love supports the fact. Isn’t that a connection? A Correlation exists? So if there is a possibility of the same then why are we poor in this? I guess we need excellence and collegial degrees here. Just a thought of love transits any situation. It creates a well where we feel like throwing more and more of it and grow with satisfaction.
A very famous and one of my favourite philosopher Khalil Gibran said “Work is love made visible”. Work as if you working for your beloved, the fruit is for your love and see the amount of affection that you’ll put in it. I am capable of loving so so so much but still hold myself during numerous situations. It’s a human fear I need to regulate. There are indisputable apprehensions in my path but to reach on the other side of the river I need to wrestle them all. It does take a lot of effort and zeal but a lil love can change it all. This is where I wish to be, a true spiritual victory of me and thats what I work for. So there is no harm in loving others and yourself as that’s what that casts us and nothing else. . Love!!!

DrEaMss...

Saw a perfect guy, met him, dreamt my whole life and the next moment we were paths apart. It happens many a times, while driving, you come across a traffic officer and imagine getting fined for any stupid reason, within a span of seconds. That’s the potential imagination and speed our brain has. Wonder if can use for betterment of me....
But seriously dreams...... every second we feel and imagine something and actually picturize it, rather beautifully. What is this power that we have? Does it mean that we can have parallel lives; can I live through each and every possible imaginable thought of me? In a minute span of a second I can go and actually witness a galaxy, can imagine walking on a beach, being with someone I dream of, flying, having a perfect life and the next moment I am here writing all this out. Isn’t this a rare and a stunning power bestowed on humans? I guess it becomes our duty to respect our dreams and have faith on them; they can take you there where nothing else can.
Keep dreaming and pamper them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Cause I will definitely...

Desire..

It was a moment which repeats every time, it came again. I embraced it but was not sure if can go against societal norms. But it’s a phoenix, ashes are my root. All I want is to be free, live through the freshness of youth and rise for another cycle of years. Making decisions, being manipulative, greedy are not my core yet an essential element of me being a human.
They say desires born only during human life, souls have no desire. So then, what do we call being free as, if not desire? Well the answer can be moulded as per the thoughts; some say that the state of being free comes only when realization of soul is achieved. I can feel an emptiness residing in me, but covers of materialism often comes in action but I have survived for lifetimes. My origin was to go through all the possible human emotions and still continue my spiritual journey. Hurdles acts as oxygen, makes me attempt stuff that I can’t think of. I get petrified during testing times and many times for no reason at all. Reaching God in my soul builds the human that I am.
Flying without wings, into the horizon, entering space, re-entering space, dozens of galaxies welcoming me marks my purpose. This expedition needs me and it completes me. I will keep on desiring and fulfilling them all....

repent and get over....or do we have a choice??

It is one the most deepest and ignored thought. Quiet easy to picturize when some tragedy happens, but again, do we actually prioritize it? Not really, no matter what reason we come up with; professionally, personally, spiritually and many other “lly”’s.
We do wrong doings at all levels and then proudly quote “at times we can't afford right doings and end up doing wrong”. Well surely; given a situation where you end up witnessing your senior’s immoral activities, definitely don’t want to be chucked out, so always mind your business. Scared of responsibility in a relationship: hey I have one life, wane live on my terms and of course don’t want to ruin my and so called ‘coochie pooh ex-‘lover’s life; pretty convenient huhh..
Why is it hard for others to believe that I can commit terrible mistakes and continue living happily? Well considering the other view who gives one a right to hurt the other person just for individual gains?
It is actually easy said but done. Life brings all shades, equally greys and blacks and few whites. The point that dwells me is; do we go by ethics or convenience? The ball is always is our court, always we are the decision maker and the decision conceiver. What is of utmost importance is the human value. Be it professionally, personally, spiritually or any other “lly”. Nobody will give you a green signal on any choice, resolutions are always infinite but the impact is what matters. Be soft to human life around you. Be humble and have respect. Jotting all these points makes me wonder, who the hell will go that far to show etiquettes? But do go that far, certainly go, worth it!!!!